Remember when

There was a time it seems so long ago

I could tell you I love you even though you already knew

I could show the whole world how great you were in my eyes

Back before you ever made me cry

It was second nature to brag about our love to tell everyone I met you must be an angel sent from up above

Before you chose me my life had been so dark so much pain and sorrow I was lost looking for a way out

You showed me love like I never knew existed I felt it in your touch the passion in your kisses

But then the tables turned as so often in my life they do and you became the person I wish I never knew

But I do know you now and I gues I knew you then your love was never real you were really good at pretend

So as I pick up the pieces and carry on anyway you point out the others who show love everyday

The ones who have never been broken who don't know the truth behind the lies the ones who can still believe 

The ones that have yet to cry

Part if me still wishes that kind if love existed but too many others have tasted it too many pieces are missing

If you really wanted that girl who believed you hung the stars 

Maybe you should have kept the tramps out of your car

When you cheapen what love is you end up with what is cheap

So as you scroll down those posts wishing it was me

Remember it once was 

Too bad that was the love you didn't see

Time ticks slowly on

My baby will soon be gone

The question remains the same

When the time comes as soon it will will you even notice when I'm not there

Will you wonder why maybe even cry

Why would you bother now when te excitement is long gone and time after time you found another to hold on 

I think well be okay I understand it must come one day 

But I will always remember when you were my everything

Too bad it couldn't happen again

Today

I saw an old couple today grey hair billowed in the wind on the back of a tricked out Harley they smiled and waved as they drove away.
I saw an old couple today side by side the rocked gently in the front porch shade I smiled and waved as I drove away.
I saw an old couple today he carressed her hand while silently she laid. I could hear the soft buzzing of the machines as I closed the door and walked away.
I saw an old couple today they laughed and reminisced across the table. He gave her half of his cheeseburger as the waitress smiled and walked away.
I saw an old couple today she peered into the darkness as his casket was lowered away. Tears graced her flushed, pale cheeks as one by one the mourners walked away.
I stopped for a moment to remember how swiftly life passes away.
(C) R.M. Brandon 2013

Silent Scream

Searching endlessly
Begging to find
A place to rest this tattered mind.
An escape
a release
silent tranquility I seek.
The screaming inside
Is driving me out
pieces crumbling
sanity gone blind.
Just for a moment
let this mind be laid to rest
ease the burning within this chest.
The lips must remain sealed
not a soul can be trusted.
In the end they all judge
leave you lonely
busted.
Inside this madening shell I must stay
Silent
Stoic
Yet screaming all the same.
The world must never know
the pain it truley caused
So in solemn revelry
Mind and soul are lost.

(c)R.M.Brandon2013

Riddle

Failure.
The fear of realization.
Realization of fear.
Everyone fails at something.
Some fail at everything.

Success.
If ever occasion arose.
To some is obsolete.
Some everyday complete.

Value.
Who is to judge?
What measure is used?
When calculating value of life
Who gets to choose?

Some say worthless
Others irreplaceable.
In the great big world
It is easy to feel small.

Journey.
Explore beyond vision.
Trust beyond belief.
Travel through heart
Or simply follow your feet.

Life.
A journey destined to end.
Some experience years
Others, a few heart beats.
Some know only bitter
Yet embrace it as sweet.

Perspective.
The point from which one sees
The journey some rush to complete.
Others sit idly by
Awaiting patiently return
To the other side.

Riddle.
If there is no begining
Where did it begin?
If life is simply dying
Waiting for the end.
The ending does not exist
it simply begins again.
Continuous evolution
No begining, middle, end.

Eyes closed.
Take my hand.
Feel the wind softly blow.
Fall with me now.
For a moment we soar.

The ledge long gone.
Weightlessness
Gravity pulls on.
Taste the freedom
Everything is alright.

Pain.
Impact upon the ground
Has ended our flight.

Fear of failure has gone
Swiflty into the night.
Begining a new life.
The begining is the end
The end the begining.
Failure is success
when someonelse is winning.

R.M.Brandon 10/20/12

Cry Catepillar

A moment of stillness
In a chaotic world
A choice
The bitter wind turns
It must find a home
For change
Nature
Can not be ignored

The fuzzy little catepillar
Brown coat atop countless legs
Awkward
Solitare upon the dry soil
Searches

The pull, intense
Climb
Spin
Alone
For alone is the only way to grow

Fear settles deep
Unkown ahead
Ugliness of existence as it is
Small, inconsequential
Climb, yet again alone

Surrender
Bleak desolution of winter wins
Cold, alone on the ground
She whithers and dies

If only there had been no fear
A beautiful butterfly
Would have emerged
With the Spring sun

(C) RM Brandon 2012

Jill in The Box

Jill in the box. Yeah; they said it was Jack. But Jill was the one trapped in a life stagnant. Body in a cage, heart on her sleeve. Smiling outside. Internaly she screamed.
A memory of the sun.The warmth of a real smile. That ray of sunlight gone for quite awhile.

Jill in the box. Waiting to be wound up tight. When the spring releases, briefly, she'll feel flight. Then, above her will shine happiness, better times. Fresh air. Light.

Soon followed by darkness once again to despair. Jack always pushes her head back underground, just when it feels like life has no down. Consumed in her cage she patiently waits, the melody, the wind, release.

Oddly enough it is the freedom that keeps her caged. Fooling herself maybe oneday. Maybe one day the spring will break free.
Eternal release.

Jill in the box, Jack forgot to come back today. In the darkness is where you must stay. But memory will keep you, hope will be your guide, until you die. Still trapped inside.
(C) RM Brandon 2012

The Ball

Standing in a crowded room all alone. Laughing as the show plays on. Tears trickle beneath the laughter. Unseen. Blend. Belong. Supress the desire to scream. Would it matter if it did? Would it cause a scene? Chameleon, conceal every bit of real. Blend. Belong. This won't last that long. Smile. Nod. Grace, fake it, hold still, don't fall. Standing in a crowded room all alone. For a moment, did you feel it? What was that? You belonged? No. Not really. Thank God, it's done. Get me out of these clothes! Layers of artificial. Nothing in this place is real. Smoke and mirrors. Plastic people. Just for a moment I want to feel real. Not a golden child. No precious metal at birth. No grande giveaway in a little white church. Smoke and mirrors trying to pretend. In the end just a fallen, forgotten, waste of flesh again. Standing in a crowded room. Alone. 
(C) RM Brandon 2012

Battle Cry of the Dying

The dawn sounds the bugles cry. Another day begins in the battle to survive. Fight to keep going. Fight to stay alive. Fighting back tears from hazel eyes. Why. The battle to live will always be lost. Fight it we must. For the generations to come. Another day begins. The fight to stay alive. Tomorrow will bring a new sunrise. One day life will be more than just a fight to stay alive. (C) R.M. Brandon 2012

Candy Man

Candy Man

She left a quarter
each time you gave her something sweet
walking through the door
it shined beneath my feet

two under each couch cushion
the living room rug
The bedroom
floor to bed
a trail that should have brought pain

Instead
a smile sparked from lips to eyes
you gave her candy
she gave you a quarter
childish games

Candy man
Do it again
your lover
lit the flame
deep within my soul

It is so much easier
 to walk back out that door
A quarter at a time
wisdom was earned
a fighter grew
strength of a warrior who knew

Candy man
and the quarter queen
you may live happily ever after
My regrets none
Candy man
turn your princess child
into your working queen
I am gone

(c)~Rm Brandon 2011~