Monday, April 14, 2014

Divinely Broken

In doubt, brokenness, weakness
Another finds strength, courage
Evidence of the divine.

How is it so
A shattered, lost soul
Gives light to the darkness of mankind

Seek not immortality
For existence is infinite
Seek not love
For love is in being
not ownership

Give freely yet withhold or no
Pieces will remain
Lift the fallen
Even when strength no longer

Does the darkness save the light
The light extinguish the darkness
Or do they simply dance
Hand in hand
Existing in the end
Where one ends the other begins

In saving the lost
The lost save themselves
When the broken
Are reminded even they are

Friday, April 4, 2014

Say something

What do you expect
What do you want me to say
There is no telling you what's wrong
You don't deserve the satisfaction
Of hearing be say
I lost my best friend
My world felt like it came to an end
Of course you expect me to try it again
The day we took our wedding vows your mistress was still in grade school
The hundreds of dollars spent pampering her don't hurt that bad
Mind you the kids and I struggled alone but we valued everything we had
The endless lies stung a bit
But those are to be expected when a man tries to cover his own shit
It's the stolen moments
The look in your eyes
The taking her out just to leave me behind
Still today it's the exact same
No dinner dates
No roses
No nights at the club
No steamy hotels
Just the emptiness of all the promises broken
Not a lover or a friend just a person with a ring as a token
I didn't win the superbowl 
Unless it was the champion of the fools
She'll always be your heart your precious jewel
Why won't you leave me alone
I don't need company
I am perfectly happy just being me
I can see that your trying
The motions are true but they are not out of passionate love
That's something you can't undo
Go back to your child
The little kid you wanted so badly
I am a woman
I don't need a man
Unless he can give me the one thing I crave
A love that never fades

Thursday, April 3, 2014

Balance Beam

Wrapped in duality
Beaten by pain,hate,doubt
Lost on the sea of self loathing
Like eagles they fly in
Wings strong,sure
Gently they lift
Soul to sun
Rare and few are they
Always present when the darkness calls
Pulling away from the abyss
To life renewed
Thank you sweet angels
You know who you are
For being my life's bright
northern star
Without you I am empty
A shell of the whole
With you I am filled
Light,love, and hope

Wednesday, April 2, 2014

Mirrored Lives

If the window to the soul was as clear as it could be
Would you bother to look inside
What would you see

Your eyes and words
Offer that window to me
I peer deeply
Pondering the vastness of all I see

Your beauty,power,love, and empathy,the depth of your heart
Contains love beyond belief
You give so much more
Than you ever dare to take

My soul honors your soul
All the beauty held deep within
Ponder now I must
Why can't you see it
When you look deep within

So turn I must the mirror
Peering at myself through your eyes
The vision becomes distorted
The me you see
I don't recognize

Where is that laughter
The smile, the heart
When I look deep within
They play no part

Failures,short comings
Unexpected lives
No beauty do I see
When I peer beneath my own skin

Maybe I just need to keep looking
Through the mirror
You hold within

Missing words

As a writer, few things are more terrifying than realizing some of your work has gone astray. Not just some, an entire blog of beautifully crafted words and tidbits of creative nuance gone. As I surf the webber world my heart grows heavy with realization. My words are gone. Please, Please! If you happen across anything bearing my pen name let know. My brain children have wandered away. I'm worried what kind of trouble they will get into without my supervision.